"Women of God can never be like women of the world. The world has enough women who are tough; we need women who are tender. There are enough women who are coarse; we need women who are kind... We have enough women of fame and fortune; we need more women of faith." -- Margaret D. Nadauld

Monday, April 13, 2009


Today hasn't been the most positive, wonderful or fulfilling day. It should have been. I started out the day with my list and I was able to check everything but ONE item off! That's quite an amazing feat for me!

But something is off. Have you had a day like that?

It started off bad. I was soooo tired. I got little to no sleep last night. When Max travels I can't sleep until I know he's arrived at his destination safely -- which was after 1 a.m. When he finally texted me and told me he was at the hotel, I allowed myself to try to fall asleep. But something, I don't know what, suddenly woke me up about 2:30 am. It was disturbing enough that it disturbed the rest of my sleep until about 5 or 5:30. By then I was so exhausted that I knew I could NOT get up and go to the gym at 7:30. I forced myself out of bed at 8:30 -- just in time to say goodbye to Buttercup -- and from that point on the day was a bust.

I worked steadily at my list and tried to be upbeat and positive, but I'm just so tired that I couldn't pull it off. Add to it that I have this irritating, dry cough and I fought nausea all day....


But I'm not done.

Inigo didn't have kindergarten so I had to drag him along on all my errands and he was so good that when we got home I told him we could call a friend to come over. Seriously, the boy called 5 different friends and not one of them was home! *tears*
Finally, an hour later, one of the friends called back and he was able to come up and play for a while. *whew*

Then Buttercup got home from school. Today was the first day of dance team tryouts. She was frustrated and her self-esteem levels were scraping rock bottom. The coaches were asking the girls to do steps and techniques that she didn't know how to do. AND SHE HAS BEEN DANCING SINCE SHE WAS IN KINDERGARTEN!! She felt that every other girl auditioning is so much better and that she is just going to look foolish and embarrass herself by continuing. She was going to walk away and quit.
It's so hard as a mom to see your daughter feeling this bad about herself. I gave her the pep talk about not having any regrets, about not being a quitter and how you can't live your life avoiding situations where you could possibly be embarrassed. My goodness, you'd have to stay in the house, by yourself, every day to avoid embarrassment! But ultimately, I had to walk away and say, "You decide." I didn't have any emotional energy left after the talk to try to convince her to keep trying.

(She came to me about 1/2 hour later and said she realized that she is NOT a quitter! I was so proud of her!)

And the frosting on the cake was tonight: the scanner attached to our home computer doesn't work. Max doesn't know why and hasn't been able to fix it. Buttercup needed to scan some old pictures (BEFORE digital) to use for a school project. We had to go to Max's office and use the scanner there. Of course, it wasn't easy. We were there for 2 hours and only got 29 pictures scanned. We got them home to begin editing them and... no surprise.... this is how they turned out:

This is a photo of Max and Buttercup on the Oregon Coast when she was almost 3 years old. But you can't tell that can you? How in the heck did they turn out so small? What did I do wrong?

No, wait!! I know what I did wrong!!


(I certainly hope the planets are aligned much better tomorrow!)


JulieJ said...

I hate days like that. Hope things look better today. B has had pink eye since Saturday, isn't responding to his eye drops and has a fever and vomiting. Not sure what to do with him either.

thorkgal said...

YOU KNOW I've had days... weeks like that. Not at all fun. Thankfully time has a way of clearing most things up... and of course a night out with the GIRLS. YaHoO!

Family, Inc. said...

Call me next time! I have a great and speedy scanner, and I have a 5 year old that would love a playmate.

Yvonne said...

I read this the other day and I guess I forgot to comment--SORRY.

Those kinds of days are HORRIBLE. Hope things are better today.

I feel for Buttercup (and her mom)--I'm so glad she didn't quit.

Hang in there.