Sunday. It's supposed to be a wonderful day.
Usually, you go to church, take the Sacrament, listen to wonderfully prepared talks and if you have a Sunday calling, fulfill it cheerfully and to the best of your ability. If you have another type of calling, you go to your classes, listen and participate in the lesson and go home feeling uplifted and ready to face the week.
Maybe I have a bad attitude. But it didn't go that way for me today.
I won't go into details about our Sacrament Meeting because I don't want to offend anyone, but let's say there seemed to be a complete lack of spirit there. (We heard the word "sucks" over the pulpit more than once!) For me, the best part of the meeting was listening to my extremely talented next door neighbors share their testimony through song. Maddle Faddle played the violin accompanied by her mother on the piano while her Dad sang beautifully, I Know My Redeemer Lives. Thank heavens for music. It soothes the soul.
On to Primary, which is my new calling. I teach one of three CTR 7 classes. And I was lucky enough to have Sharing Time today.
I was prepared.
I was ready with my visual helps and with what I wanted to say.
But I wasn't prepared in that I forgot that it's Primary not Young Women and anything can happen... no matter how prepared you are!!
It didn't go well.
On to class time. We have a problem in our primary with teachers failing to show up and/or get substitutes. I have taught my class 4 times and 2 of those times I have had to take an extra class because there is no one else to teach them. This makes consistency hard. It kind of gives a party atmosphere to the class.
I felt so mean because I kept saying, "Stop touching her!" "Come sit down!" "Please, can you tell me all about how your grandma went swimming after the lesson is over?" (I allow 10+ minutes before class even starts to share events of the previous week.)
Today I came home and cried.
I'll have to find some other way to find that peace that I look for each week. After all, it was only one Sunday. I'm sure things will be back in order next week.
At least I hope so.